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"Insanity is liberation of the mind and willingness to accept Absolute Truth."

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[16 Feb 2007|02:16pm]
Again, for those that missed the last post and only at times check their friends' page.... I have moved over to witchdocktor. Please add me and continue to revel in the madness. As a wise and beautiful woman once said to me, "Over and out".

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[10 Jan 2007|11:09pm]
For those of you who pay attention still, I am writing in Livejournal once again but now over on witchdocktor. Add me if you wish, I'll probably be systematically deleting this journal bit by bit soon. See you on the other side...

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Voice Post: [31 Jan 2006|01:44am]
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“I am so bored.


Transcribed by: ex_alleged

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Freewrite Rant #B4 [30 Jan 2006|07:58pm]
Today we get a rant that is usually reserved for necromancer. He isn't in at the moment so tikigods will take care of it in Cardinal Claudius' name. This is inspired.

Love. You will not find it. Good sweet christ almighty, its all just a demented little joke to you in which you are the final sad victim. you see, if you weren't the victim then the very platform you preach from would become invalid. you're friends aren't real. there is no one you would stand by. you may think they are real but when one becomes inconvenient to your supposed ideals you bail. you lie. you cheat. you are a hypocrite. you are the creator of your own prison. science may never find the right pills for you. you don't have a problem; its everyone else's fault anyway. you could have been great but mediocre is all that will ever be achieved. convenience. fear. mistrust. a point will come after you have used everyone for the final time in which it won't be you not answering the phone, they will not be answering you. it may be said that friendships know no boundaries but that doesn't mean you should try to find them. oh yes. its their fault anyway. after months of silence this is the final death throw. a little bit of vomit, turn blue, shit on the carpet. dead. be nice to the rest of the world; they outnumber you 6 billion to one. cough cough cough. "enjoy your studio apartment". martha. you know, when harvard looks at your application, it should be noted that "manipulation" doesn't really get you anywhere with them. oh, unless you fuck the dean. that would prolly work ::shrug:: hehe. bastard 'corn. whats funny is im laughing right now. hilarious even. the rant is being forced here. karma (if i believed in it) will be a bitch anyway. go get knocked up, have him collect unemployment (cause one needs a job history to get it). peace (over and) out. now we get to see who gives a flying rats ass...

And in other news: College rocks. My new business rocks. Traveling rocks.

I'm finally being a good Capricorn. I love most of ya.

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[20 Jan 2006|04:45am]

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[31 Dec 2005|09:28pm]
Happy New Year!!!!!!!

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[08 Dec 2005|08:01pm]
I think I might be in love.

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[27 Oct 2005|08:45pm]
11 days until I have to wear coats and things with sleeves? Thats some crap I tell ya! But Dunkin Donuts... mmm...

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[25 Oct 2005|12:34pm]
I must be in a visual mood because I keep finding pics I want to post on my journal. I present, for your amusement, a new drug all the kids are into these days. My apologies if this has already gotten around in the internet but if you haven't seen it, well its new to you.

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[25 Oct 2005|02:59am]

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See, even Batman knows... [25 Oct 2005|01:21am]

Ladies, please don't crucify me...

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[24 Oct 2005|08:51pm]
Tammy and I are off to see...

Terry Gilliam, I have faith...

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A Note for Homeland Security, F.B.I., C.I.A., C.D.C. and other, more shadowy arms of The Man... [24 Oct 2005|11:09am]
I love all of you. I only rant on and on so I can find the real people against you, ya know, ferret out the heretics and all that. I go to church (as sanctioned by You), I vote Republican, I'm still a virgin (I don't even know what a naked woman looks like), I pay my taxes, I don't curse, I brush my teeth as recommended by dentists of America, I work out daily, I read the USA Today, I don't trust foreigners, I go to work 50 hours a week and I never, ever lie. Ever.

Just call me Winston.

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[24 Oct 2005|11:00am]
Abstinence only education. What a strange thought, no? Sometimes words I don't get to use nearly enough pop into my head and just a moment ago the word was abstinence. Well then my mind went on a tangent about the word and how its being used by the Administration. Come on people, we all know sex is fun for the vast majority of the populace (even those with religious convinctions have to admit that the act itself is a transendence from daily existence, religion only adds guilt to the act of sex, it does not take from the physical sensation itself).
Is teaching abstinence only going to change that fact? Is it going to make kids no longer interested in the ultimate rebellion? You tell most people "no" and the air of mystery becomes all the more tempting to succumb to. You can show teens all the pictures of STD's you want but is that going to overpower what they then see on television? The movies? Print ads? Is a reform of sex education going to close all of the strip clubs? Will Hustler and Playboy go out of business? Will cities like Las Vegas change their entire marketing schemes and dismantle their billboards and send their showgirls packing? Will Paris shut down the burlesque shows? Is Amsterdam going to issue an apology and then board up the Red Light district? The ladies of the Red Thread are going to take up underwater basketweaving?
Our time in school is vastly shorter than our time out of school and media in all forms has much more money to shove in our directions promoting sex than the governement has to villify sex. If the theory behind abstinence only sex education is that if they don't present alternatives we'll stop having sex before marriage then what is the government's plan for combating media?
Why would the government even care that we like to get it on in our spare time? Is it to curtail STD's? Are they watching out for us? They would never do such a thing for religious convictions, right? Its not because the bible says premarital sex is wrong... seperation of church and state, right? No, its not for religious reasons. I also doubt its for health reasons (it would stand to inspection that one should know of all safety methods i.e. birth control since it is statistically impossible that every student who hears of abstinence only is actually going to practice that based solely on their teacher's word alone, even the government has to know that).
I think it is possible that their motivations are even more sinister. The act of sex allows a person to become one with another. We get to rise up from our mortal bodies, march to the gates of Heaven and partake in the divine gifts and afterwards we get to return. Consciousness melts together, two are as one. We experience connections that are not possible in any other way with each other. It would seem to me that the physical act of love should be practiced as often as possible by as many people as possible so that we can all be connected. (not to say anything against monogamy or vows, I only mean that those who can, should partake)
When we have sex we are no longer of this world. It is possible to be addicted to this state of being, yes. When we convince ourselves that our lives are so horrible that we strive to be away from it as often as possible the options often get narrowed down to drugs, sex or suicide. It is our responsibility to prove that we can make love and still live our lives. We can all connect and become one while never relinquishing our individuality.
I think the government wants us to never taste what it is to transcend with another. We are to lead our lives as sanctioned by them. Go to school, get a job, get married, reproduce, repeat, rinse. Do not connect with your race, stay within the lines.

Trojan Man, get lost.

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[21 Oct 2005|09:52am]
A Look Into déjà vu

The term déjà vu (French: "already seen", also called paramnesia) describes the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously. The term was created by a French psychic researcher, Emile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book L'Avenir des sciences psychiques (The Future of Psychic Sciences), which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate French concentrator at the University of Chicago. The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eerieness" or "strangeness". The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience "genuinely happened" in the past.

The experience of déjà vu seems to be very common; in formal studies 70% or more of the population report having experienced it at least once [1]. References to the experience of déjà vu are also found in literature of the past, indicating it is not a new phenomenon. However, in laboratory settings, it is extremely difficult to invoke the déjà vu experience, making it a subject with few empirical studies.

Scientific research
In recent years, déjà vu has been subjected to serious psychological and neurophysiological research. The most likely candidate for explanation, according to scientists in these fields, is that déjà vu is not an act of "precognition" or "prophecy" but is actually an anomaly of memory; it is the impression that an experience is "being recalled" which is false. This is substantiated to an extent by the fact that in most cases the sense of "recollection" at the time is strong, but any circumstances of the "previous" experience (when, where and how the earlier experience occurred) are quite uncertain. Likewise, as time passes, subjects can exhibit a strong recollection of having the "unsettling" experience of déjà vu itself, but little to no recollection of the specifics of the event(s) or circumstances they were "remembering" when they had the déjà vu experience, and in particular, this may result from an overlap between the neurological systems responsible for short-term memory (events which are perceived as being in the present) and those responsible for long-term memory (events which are perceived as being in the past). Neurophysiological specialist Stephanie Warn (based out of San Francisco) has dedicated research on the subject matter. Her current conclusion is that déjà vu is merely the brain pulsing at a exponential rate which causes a person to recall something he or she saw the moment before.

Links with disorders
A clinical correlation has been found between the experience of déjà vu and disorders such as schizophrenia and anxiety, and the likelihood of the experience increases considerably with subjects having these conditions. However, the strongest pathological association of déjà vu is with temporal lobe epilepsy. This correlation has led some researchers to speculate that the experience of déjà vu is possibly a neurological anomaly related to improper electrical discharge in the brain. As most people suffer a mild (ie. non-pathological) epileptic episode regularly (eg. the sudden "jolt", a hypnagogic jerk, that frequently occurs just prior to falling asleep), it is conjectured that a similar (mild) neurological aberration occurs in the experience of déjà vu, resulting in an erroneous "memory".

Déjà vu is associated with precognition, clairvoyance or extra-sensory perceptions, and it is frequently cited as evidence for "psychic" abilities in the general population. Non-scientific explanations attribute the experience to a "prophecy" or "vision" (most commonly delivered via a dream), or alternatively to an experience had in a past life related to a reincarnation.

One idea for the cause of déjà vu stems from dreams. The vast majority of dreams are never remembered because they do not enter the long term memory. However, it has been shown that a dreaming person can display activity in the areas where the processing of long term memories takes place. The cause for this observation is believed to be when a dream bypasses our short term memory and is placed in the long term. Dreams also have the quality whereby they are not limited by restrictions such as time or space. Therefore, if even a small amount of all the dreams a person has in their life are placed in their long term memory, déjà vu could be the result of recalling a dream. This would also explain why a person does not recall where or when the original event of the déjà vu happened, only that it did occur.

Related phenomena
Déjà vécu: the sense of already having lived through an experience
Jamais vu: explicitly not remembering having seen something before. The person knows it has happened before, but the experience feels unfamiliar.
Presque vu: almost, but not quite, remembering something. This is the 'on the tip of my tongue' feeling.
Déjà visité: uncanny knowledge of a new place. Here one may know his or her way around in a new town or landscape while at the same time knowing that this should not be possible. In addition to dreams, reincarnation and also out-of-the-body travel have been evoked to explain this phenomenon.
Déjà senti: feeling something again. Unlike déjà vu and déjà vécu, which imply precognition, this refers specifically to a mental feeling. Some temporal-lobe epileptics may experience this.
Déjà eprouvé: "already attempted or tried".

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(A) Definition of Insanity [21 Oct 2005|09:05am]
Insanity (sometimes, madness) is a semi-permanent severe disorder of the mind, typically as a result of mental illness.

In criminal law, it is the assessment that the disorder is severe enough as to relieve an accused of legal responsibility for his or her actions. An insanity defense is based on claiming this is the case, and that a sentence should involve treatment rather than imprisonment (or, in the case of temporary insanity, that no sentence should be applied at all).

In civil law, insanity renders a person unfit for entering contracts or other legal obligations. In some judicial systems, it may allow for someone to be involuntarily committed. Many who support the movement of anti-psychiatry take the position that mental illness is questionable as a diagnosis either legally or medically, and that claims of insanity should not free said persons from responsibility.

In popular culture, something "insane" is something extremely foolish, while persons may be deemed "insane" if their behaviour strongly deviates from accepted social norms. The term is typically negative, but departure from established norms may also be seen as a positive quality; in this case, being "insane" is being daringly unconventional or individualistic. This use of insane is illustrated by the following quote from Henry David Thoreau's A Plea for Captain John Brown:

Many, no doubt, are well disposed, but sluggish by constitution and by habit, and they cannot conceive of a man who is actuated by higher motives than they are. Accordingly they pronounce this man insane, for they know that they could never act as he does, as long as they are themselves.

In this sense, "insanity" is not implied to be an actual disorder, let alone severe.

In some views, what is insane by mainstream definitions is not necessarily a disorder of the mind, but may simply be a different way of being that is judged as unacceptable on social or cultural grounds. This is stronger than the meaning discussed above—in this case, it is implied that what is seen as actual insanity by others is not (and by extension, that there is no mental illness). Since great legal and social consequences are attached to being declared insane (ranging from possibly having one's freedom curtailed by involuntary commitment to escaping punishment by falsely convincing others of insanity), these matters are a source of considerable controversy.

As a state of mental disorder, insanity has historically been attributed to supernatural or divine causes where theories of mental illnesses were not developed. Aberrant or destructive behaviour from an individual has been explained as another entity taking over their body (demonic possession) or as a mental unhinging inflicted by the gods, as punishment for wrongdoing. In these theories, insanity is an external condition overriding an otherwise sane mind (which may not ever manifest itself). That demonic possession occurs and can be a valid explanation for insanity in some cases is still asserted by some, but this view holds no more than minority acceptance.

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